Sometimes, when I’m thinking about spreading the truths of Jesus Christ and the Roman Catholic Church, I find myself doubting. I’ve realized multiple times that I’ve been having difficulty in explaining and trying to understand certain Roman Catholic stuff (I feel like the fear of people hating me is a big contributor to that feeling as well) and that I find myself asking “What if the ideas that I’m trying to spread are actually false?” but still, I would like to remain a Roman Catholic while I search for and try to spread the truth because of the Roman Catholic Church’s great contributions to the uplifting of society and its ideas regarding uplifting the souls of other people. I guess I need to have faith, keep on learning, and keep on properly feeding my desire for truth and true happiness…those two desires that I had ever since my early childhood…or maybe ever since my infancy…
It takes a while to rid oneself of what is called “fear of man.” We all want to be liked and to fit in, but it is not necessarily a virtue to have no enemies. After all, many saints were so hated that people murdered them. As Our Lord says, “If you were of the world, the world would love his own: but because you are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hates you” (John 15:19). So, we ought not worry that certain people will not like or will even hate us for being Catholic; though, forming this attitude–that of pleasing God rather than man–takes a lot of practice and habit. I myself often do not contradict people when I should or speak about the Faith at fitting moments. But, practice makes perfect, and, Deo volente, we shall be willing to appear even as fools for God’s sake.
But, learning the faith is a big part of not being afraid to teach it. The more we study Scripture, spiritual works, and theology the more certain we feel of the faith. In fact, secular logic is shoddy, but it takes some study and practice in order to refute it. No modern thinker compares to either St. Augustine or St. Thomas Aquinas, but many secular persons we meet in day to day life often have a leg up on us. So, have no doubt that the faith is true even if you cannot articulate it well yet.
I recommend studying Peter Kreeft’s Summa of the Summa or his Practical Theology as a way to start. Good luck to you, Overlord Bear!
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Sometimes, when I’m thinking about spreading the truths of Jesus Christ and the Roman Catholic Church, I find myself doubting. I’ve realized multiple times that I’ve been having difficulty in explaining and trying to understand certain Roman Catholic stuff (I feel like the fear of people hating me is a big contributor to that feeling as well) and that I find myself asking “What if the ideas that I’m trying to spread are actually false?” but still, I would like to remain a Roman Catholic while I search for and try to spread the truth because of the Roman Catholic Church’s great contributions to the uplifting of society and its ideas regarding uplifting the souls of other people. I guess I need to have faith, keep on learning, and keep on properly feeding my desire for truth and true happiness…those two desires that I had ever since my early childhood…or maybe ever since my infancy…
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It takes a while to rid oneself of what is called “fear of man.” We all want to be liked and to fit in, but it is not necessarily a virtue to have no enemies. After all, many saints were so hated that people murdered them. As Our Lord says, “If you were of the world, the world would love his own: but because you are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hates you” (John 15:19). So, we ought not worry that certain people will not like or will even hate us for being Catholic; though, forming this attitude–that of pleasing God rather than man–takes a lot of practice and habit. I myself often do not contradict people when I should or speak about the Faith at fitting moments. But, practice makes perfect, and, Deo volente, we shall be willing to appear even as fools for God’s sake.
But, learning the faith is a big part of not being afraid to teach it. The more we study Scripture, spiritual works, and theology the more certain we feel of the faith. In fact, secular logic is shoddy, but it takes some study and practice in order to refute it. No modern thinker compares to either St. Augustine or St. Thomas Aquinas, but many secular persons we meet in day to day life often have a leg up on us. So, have no doubt that the faith is true even if you cannot articulate it well yet.
I recommend studying Peter Kreeft’s Summa of the Summa or his Practical Theology as a way to start. Good luck to you, Overlord Bear!
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