Watching the conversation between Matoi and Senketsu in episode 13 of Kill la Kill reminds me of how Christ might speak to a Christian who has fallen into a vicious cycle and can’t seem to bring himself up. From the above statement, you probably figure that the allegory is tenuous; but, let’s see how far we can take it, shall we? First, my dear readers, let’s start with Matoi’s status as a hero. People look up to her. Then, she loses her cool, her kamui devours her, and she is saved by someone who hardly counts as a fighter–Mako. This might be analogous to a young man or woman who strongly practices the faith, which always leads people at least to marvel at them for not skipping church and disobeying the other precepts of the Church as most of their colleagues do. But, such people always endure the sharpest temptations: they are scoffed at by the majority and weighed down by the desires of the flesh. If none of these bring them down, then the devil tries to bring darkness and confusion into their lives. Against this onslaught of evil, it is not surprising that some fall and even fall so deeply that they do not want to get up.
Matoi similarly does not want to rise–even from her bed. (How I know that feeling!) She dares not to put on Senketsu and even feels embarrassed to speak to him. She has witnessed how monstrous her nature and lack of self-control can be. To compare her to a Christian, imagine someone who had immense confidence in Christ, but forgot the limitations of human nature and fell. What they thought was confidence in Christ turned out merely to be confidence in themselves. Is Christ to be blamed for this deplorable state of events? Of course not! “Pride goeth before a fall.” Whenever people fall greatly, they have forgotten humility and the fear of God. Pride inhibits the working of grace, which is why St. Augustine told someone that the three main virtues of Christianity are “humility, humility, humility.”
Curiously, Senketsu hanging on the closet reminds me of a crucifix. Many Catholics have them hanging in every room. Negatively, this means we cannot avoid suffering. Positively, this means that we cannot avoid Christ who is always aids us in our suffering. Perhaps, the line of Matoi’s which most easily brings one’s thoughts to the crucifix are when she tells Senketsu that the memory of Senketsu’s tears brought her the most pain. In perfect repentance, a soul repents not merely for the punishment due their sin, but most especially for the pain and disappointment their sin caused Jesus Christ.
What is the result of a soul falling into such sin? They might not feel the confidence of faith as they once did, and Jesus Christ finds that he needs to knock on a door which was once always open to receive Him. Excuses are tendered. Self-accusations of unworthiness are offered to avoid having to do God’s will. Even the accusation that God let one down might be said–but who really believes that? One wants to ignore the fact that there is a war waging between good and evil and that losing means nothing less than than losing one’s own soul and harming the souls of others.
But, Jesus Christ is patient because human beings are so weak and ignorant. Like Senketsu, Jesus might remind us that He “was born in order to be worn by [us].” For, what else is the Christian religion but putting on Christ, the New Man, and fulfilling the works he would have us do so that we might crucify the Old Man, our sinful selves? We all have particular trials to undergo for the love of God. Christ ardently desires to be with us every step of the way: we must simply put Him on and run our course.
Even after agreeing to run again, we might find that we fall to that formidable temptation over and over again–as Matoi fell in battle soon after putting on Senketsu again. But, St. Theresa of Avila confessed that she even fell occasionally into mortal sin after entering the convent, but she became a great saint through perseverance, i.e. always trying to put on Christ. Likewise, Christ shall lead us to become great saints as long as we don’t stop trying.